About me
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Description
So, about me and what I'm maybe here for ... My wife and me started experimenting with feederism, master/slave, open marriage, chastity some 20 years ago.
We thought it'd be an interesting journey but it got out of hand. We tried to push each other over the edge, at first in a playful way, then out of vengeance, then we dropped the concept of "consent" altogether; and eventually, we got so mentally conditioned to it we were basically ruining ourselves at the slightest trigger.
I needed more exciting things to be able to climax, whilst simultaneously perceiving every climax as proof that I wasn't sabotaged enough. I'll happily talk about the whole experience but to make a long story short: eventually we divorced.
Yet it still wasn't enough for me. Both to repent/punish myself for what I'd done, and because self-sabotage was the only path left to me, I challenged myself to finish the job and ruin myself so completely and definitively I'd be unhappy with the result for the rest of my life; yet unable to change my mind or ever resolve the problem.
I am unsure if anyone can relate, but perhaps some internet goddess might get a good chuckle out of dropping the axe. No safe word. No limit.
Limits
I don't believe in limits. I love breaking them, as much as I love for others to break mine. A "limit" is nothing but a target to be surpassed.
My kinks & fetishes
Fetish.com gives you…
Fetish.com is like an appetizing smorgasbord in Aalst with lots of hot guys to meet up with. Have a look around first if you prefer to see who’s around, or if you know what you want, search by selecting the right category "Kinky Dating”. Nobody stays alone here for long! Fetish.com has tons going on!
When the one you're talking to has reached the point of apathy. That's when the conversation is done for sure.
Yeah I'm also going to necro here for a second. Because I have a question -- actually the reason I made this account in the first place. I know castration is not quite the same as thorough self-sabotage, but still, the idea is somewhat adjacent. I've been browsing the forum for a bit and found Read more… nothing even close, so ..... does anybody have any idea what this kind of sexual ruination is called? A kind of mental castration / self-inflicted permanent chastity / sabotage of the organ without physically cutting it off?
Well, I mostly made an account so I could read about other people's weird desires -- wondering if it's just me or there a name, a community for my particular taste. There used to be a subreddit for deliberate self-sabotage but apparently it was shut down before I knew it existed.
We thought it'd be an interesting journey but it got out of hand. We tried to push each other over the edge, at first in a playful way, then out Read more… of vengeance, then we dropped the concept of "consent" altogether; and eventually, we got so mentally conditioned to it we were basically ruining ourselves at the slightest trigger.
I needed more exciting things to be able to climax, whilst simultaneously perceiving every climax as proof that I wasn't sabotaged enough. I'll happily talk about the whole experience but to make a long story short: eventually we divorced.
Yet it still wasn't enough for me. Both to repent/punish myself for what I'd done, and because self-sabotage was the only path left to me, I challenged myself to finish the job and ruin myself so completely and definitively I'd be unhappy with the result for the rest of my life; yet unable to change my mind or ever resolve the problem.
I am unsure if anyone can relate, but perhaps some internet goddess might get a good chuckle out of dropping the axe. No safe word. No limit.
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