Finding Yourself

[Aquaries]

On 9/6/2025 at 1:10 AM, Goodboy3-1431 said:

This is not as easy for some. I am struggling with the realization that I am submissive. The struggle is that I talked to my wife and she is not interested at all in exploring anything.

My choices now are : 1. be dishonest and go do something on the side. 2. Initiate a divorce. Or 3. Keep denying who I am and be miserable. 
I am trying to find people to talk to. I have no experience with submission so I don’t know what I don’t know. I know the thought of being put over a lap and spanked may be more appealing than it actually happening.

 

It's been a while for this post but 

I'm probably at the same place as you, thinking about °1 and what it will imply °2 not an option as I love my wife even if she's not really open to it and in pre-menopause where her hunger for sex is as dry as the Sahara so it's going to be 3 miserable but not denying . 

So It's number 3 for me with an exhaust on the internet: here on this site, playing femdom games or looking for femdom porn... I know it's sound sad and pathetic and it's probably that too, but It's trying to find a balance between my 2 sides that I choose. My 2 sides because when I'm in this universe (kink) there's some kind of a switch that is turning on in my brain. When that switch is on, I'm would be open to experience a lot of stuff!

I would be in heaven to lay under a latex clad mistress and please her in any way she deems necessary.

 

Thanks for your post I'M feeling less alone.