I am and have been dominant in all sexual relationships through my life. I love the feeling of being given trust in this way, and watching another writhe at the pleasure I’m able to give them.

…BUT... I’ve always had a desire deep down that the anonymity of these sites will allow me to express fully...in the hope that there is someone with a desire that would fit mine (but from the other side) like a puzzle piece.

A recent online friendship (long distance) convinced me to pursue this. Life is too short to spend it denying or repressing a strong desire. I confessed this desire to that woman on-line, and she began calling me ‘baby boy’ in a loving, and then erotic way, and it sent lightning bolts straight thru me every time. That convinced me to acknowledge it, and put it out there.

To be blunt, the thought of being a woman’s baby boy (not in the diaper or infant stage or way), being pulled over her lap at times for gentle spankings, her fondling me in this position, laying my head in her lap and sucking from her breast while she plays with me, leading my mouth and body to give her pleasure in any way she teaches me... guides me - this is what I (up to this point) have secretly desired.

I’m older, but stay in top shape (profile pic is real). To be completely up front, I am married, and no, she doesn’t and wouldn’t know of this. I’ve tried hinting it this desire, and it was an immediate no-go. I understand fully the morals of this, but would rather not go to my grave not knowing what this feels like. Obviously I’m fine if your situation is the same. Discretion is asked and will be kept by me.

I’m very anal, oral, and really have no bounds except for two.
1) My desire is not about humiliation. I totally understand those who pursue that, but this is more loving/erotic/soft if that makes sense.
2) BD is a turn on..SM, again just in my case, is not. No ‘pain’ desired beyond erotic spanking.

Ok...so at least I got it out there. This may sit unanswered for years, but at least I can say I went searching for it.

Thanks for reading - and best of luck in your pursuits!

Desires and Fantasies
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