On the few days I have been here I noticed I am more of a romantic nut-job weirdo than I ever expected, but hey, that is not going to stop me from finding my Sunstone story somewhere in the vast ocean of Internet, no stone shall be left unturned. Ally, Allan, I will keep writing, please find me!
On GENDER I would prefer an option: "all of the above" hehehe, that would fit my weird mind better, but for the sake of honesty I chose the one closest to mere biology.
I might be a step away from transitioning but I do not feel dysforia, I do not feel it is "just a fetish", I legitimately and honestly feel inside as both a guy and a girl, as two people, I like my body although I also work to make it fit better to my androgynous yet split self image, I might transition one day because I want to feel everything I can in this trip called life. I would love to have a group of friends who I can stage all sorts of histrionic fantasies, to get really kinky and sexual but also to chat and do the simplest things, have a good time on an even childish ways, I love to be silly and laugh.
I do not shy away from the occasional quick kink but I am more of a writer than a model therefore I appreciate the art of seduction beyond pic exchange, there is nothing wrong with it but why not making an effort in chatting a little more than that, it is not that I want to be romantically conquered all the time but a little effort before throwing a pic would be appreciated, YES I KNOW this is a fetish site, but fetishist does not mean rude or any other worse adjective, to me it means interesting, unconventional and why not, smart and creative.
I write a lot, show a little, at least to begin with.
I can tell to you kind readers that are here a couple of hints to find me elsewhere, a certain bird chirping on the web would bring me messages if you decipher who I am, the task is easy if you ask the hunting goddess for her advice, I proudly share her second name, if you look for a second hint keep going dear reader, there I will tell I am of somewhere.
I consider myself a sub rather than a dom, but a "do whatever you want to do with my body as long as it does not badly hurts or is risky to my health" type rather than the "lick my boots and do my laundry while I spit on you and do my dishes while I give you an enema and stab you with staples" type (Except for the staples...that second one tho...hahaha...), I love to be playful, I'd love to be an appreciated toy.
I look for a place I could call a lair, I was recently called a certain animal on a kinky chat, I do not particularly dislike dogs or their kin, but I can tell you dear reader I feel much more like a free-spirited vixen that would be a permanent resident of the famous garden lost.
I love silk, La Luna (The Moon) smiling at me, butterflies and, recently discovered, I love walking barefoot on snow.
Get me going with the right words, I am an avid reader, one that considers 50 Shades mediocre at best, DeviantArt and Tumblr have way better hidden gems; I read the classics from which I wonder and write of my own stories; put your thoughts on your letters and I will put my body in your hands.
Sex is a game, with rules yeah, but done for fun, I want to have a whole bunch of players in my life!
Sometimes one by one, sometimes all of them at the same time.
So, what does a girl need to do to get nicely, politely and romantically gangbanged, creampied and bukkaked without fear of being hurt or to catch a bug in the process?
Also I would have the most beautiful mind orgasm if someone solves this crazy soul riddle and contacts me elsewhere, three words, that is all you need. ;)
I dream of a lot, I want to live a lot.
Let me tell you something about "awkward and self-conscious", those are basically the best fuels for acting, and fetish sex has a lot of acting in it so you are covered in advance for the journey ahead, the only outstanding matter should be what @BigPolly said below: TRUST and CONTROL, her advice Read more… is awesome, take it.
Start by telling him (All forms of BDSM start with communication of course), after that I would recommend incremental steps, like, one day swap all his undies with panties or even simpler things as deodorant or perfume, something that will be "your secret", after that the pajamas, then you can Read more… start with more things like instructions or humiliation such as "Of course you cannot fuck me girl (to your sissy) I will fuck you tho...(dildo time)" and the likes,
BDSM most important component is: Communication.
If you do not like it say it, if you want to stop say it, if you are uncomfortable say it, otherwise BDSM can turn for the worse into an abusive relationship, speak up, be open to the outcome whether it is a mutual agreement and further understanding Read more… of each other or the realization that BDSM is not for you as a couple, as a person, or furthermore, you should speack about the entire dynamic of you as a couple.
In my own humble opinion, no amount of love justifies doing things you do not like for someone else on a regular basis. Cheers, love and light.