I feel this deeply

Honestly my first dom telling me he was so proud of me and that I did so well after our first time. Lord I need that again. Also said that I gave him the best head he’d ever had. Shame it didn’t last🥲

Thank you, I’m trying to be kind to myself in this moment, as someone who has worked on her own issues for years and developed healthy ways to communicate needs and set boundaries I’m honestly surprised it’s hit me as hard as it has. I’m aware it wasn’t me in the wrong but it still hurts that Read more… they’d go so far to use words against me that they knew would hurt. It’s like he planted a seed in my head that I’m an issue. I’m tired of those claiming titles but not wanting the responsibility that comes with them. And although I’m glad I spotted signs early than what I used to it doesn’t hurt any less sadly

I had to end it with a Daddy Dom recently, I adored the version he showed me at the beginning but the moment he was triggered emotionally he became cold and accused me of manipulating gaslighting etc (it was in fact him doing this to me) he ended it by calling me too emotional and too much. All I Read more… asked for was consistent communication, something incredibly important in a dynamic. This was a Daddy dom/caregiver. Someone who was supposed to hold space and look after his little girl but he destroyed me. I feel so entirely damaged that I don’t want to try again. He made it out like I was abusing him…i understand he had a past but he ended up bleeding onto me and shattering me entirely. I opened up to him and trusted him more than he deserved. It was more than just being patient with him. He stopped pet names, stopped being affectionate because he “didn’t have to if he didn’t want to” I honestly have lost hope in finding a healthy Dom who can hold space for their sub.

*** of having another emotionally unavailable Daddy