I'm very safety-conscious, and it's important everyone agrees what's what beforehand; all the necessary do's and don'ts, limits, communication etc. And I'm mindful of aftercare, and make every effort to give you what you need after a scene.
I was sent here by a friend who figured I would appreciate this.
Yup. A work of art.
For what it's worth, you're not alone (although that's not always as helpful as people think).
Anxiety/depression has been the bane of my life since I was 17, pretty much half my life now, and on top of that I have always been kinky as hell. I've never known sexuality without kink, and it's made me Read more… feel really isolated, like a freak.
I don't know if I would qualify for obsessive compulsive *disorder*, but I've definitely got some obsessive compulsive tendencies; between that, the anxiety and the kink shame, I've found myself feeling pretty cr*p over the years. It's only in very recent years, with the handful of connections I've made in places like this, that I've come to be a bit more accepting of my kinky side, but it still comes and goes.
As for your anxiety, it's hard to say because different people get anxious over different things. There isn't necessarily a simple, quick or easy fix, so you should always be wary of the "just do this" advice.
Judging from how I've often felt, and the way I've perceived others with similar issues, I think a lot of us anxiety folks can be quite apologetic about it, worrying about how it affects others, or how they see us. If that's you as well, I highly recommend challenging that mindset, because it doesn't help. After all, you wouldn't expect a diabetic to apologise for needing insulin, or someone in a wheelchair needing a ramp. It really is no different at all.
I'd also recommend, as best you can, to go easy on yourself. Again, I think we tend to be really self-critical, and apply standards to ourselves that we wouldn't dream of applying to others. You're not to be blamed for your brain chemistry any more than the diabetic is for their pancreas lol.
And the most general advice is to look for proper help, like doctors or psychologists, if you haven't already. Like I say, they won't be able to just *zap* you better, but they can help. Don't just try and muddle through on your own.
I hope that's of some use to you.
Like I already said, the different reasons say something about the person's attitude in general. Vaccine or no, I'm more comfortable around people who are careful and taking it seriously.
If it's someone who hasn't got the jag because they can't get it (i.e. medical reasons), then I can grant them some leeway because they're likely still being careful at least. If it's someone who's just decided not the get it, I tend to steer clear, cos odds are they aren't taking it seriously. Read more… That's my approach to people in all circumstances these days.