At first I got pranked and somehow ended up on here not knowing what this is all about and got scared and felt strange. Nevertheless, my first d/s relationship caused me to have piqued interest of everything on here and beyond. Everything went well until it didn't. I thought I would not go back on Read more… here but I did as somehow I got drawed back on here and ended up having some casual fun to meeting disastrous d/s setting the not so serious kind and possibly been misled to a cliff. Then I had another chance giving myself - happiness. I ended up giving in after a a funny , friendly and warm guy kept persisting me to be his. I wanted him to be happy and proud of me despite my flaws and insecurity. I don't know when and how everything changed but we did and we cant go back. Now Imma not sure why I am really still on here, I guess to learn and experience more about BDSM despite myself holding back to be a submissive or enter into any relationship to anyone at the moment. Even so I attempted running away from BDSM but I always come back to become more experience in BDSM and try to grow with strength and learn from the past because I know BDSM is something that intertwines my life.

I would not say edging and orgasm denial is a weird kink as such but rather the process and experiencing it, with the person who is instructing me. At first edging made me feel new territory as in I just somehow don't want it and just straight to the release , nor enticed me to want more and felt Read more… weird sometimes. However those things changed , I guess the reason is I found the right person who brought edging to a new level of ecstasy for me even when it comes to cruel orgasm denial. I just somehow feel to crave for more that was completely different to how I first experienced it. Something I don't think I'll ever forget that experience in that moment and that indescribable feel of certainty, nor the same feel I will come to have again in present or in the future.

Could deception have another meaning behind it. Such a raw and fragile piece.

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