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Hello I'm Kylie Amanda.....A fun seeking kinky transgender, transsensual artistic rubber girl who loves...NO, adores her girly femininity!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hehe My corseted curves measure 40B-32-38 and I can squeeze into a size 10-12 dress if you help zip me up!! hehe Curious, sensual and open-minded, with many fetish interests and I LOVE to switch with the right partner....so I guess you could call me a "Tri-Sexual"...I'll "try" anything once except for possibly scat, or blood. Rubber, leather, shiny latex (Total Enclosure), heavy rubber, rain gear, plugs, gags, straight jackets, tight corsets, hoods, hoses, gasmasks, wet suits, dry suits, dive masks (especially FFM's), dive gear and rebreather bags are all favorites. Mmmmm
2021 UPDATE... My resolution this year is to increase my cleavage and reach a C cup....so I have decided to begin a breast & nipple pumping regimen....which is yielding some progress so far this year. Wish me luck!! It's 5/21now... and I can't describe how pleasing and exciting it feels to look down and see my breasts. I can now cup a nice (full B) handful and my nipples are deliciously sensitive and can bring me a euphoric high when massaged! Looking forward to being able to nestle my boobs securely into a C cup! It's fall now and tight sweater weather.. and I'm smiling every time I look down. Showering today I noted how much larger and sensitive my breasts are now, and how much pleasure they bring me when I touch and massage them Mmmm. hehe...;-0
Oh...and feel free to comment on my photos ( I DO NOT use Face App) ...I LOVE knowing I can make you all HOT and bothered!!...Hehe
From my earliest memories, I've always been deeply drawn to my strong creative feminine side and have been described as "a natural" here on FL. Within the last couple of years I underwent some cosmetic procedures (laser & Botox) to enhance my 'natural femininity' and five+ years of antiandrogen T blockers have made a difference down below and a pleasing increase in boobage to a small B cup...YES!! In addition to staying smooth and polished for my lesbian/bisexual lover, if this Pandemic ever ends and the economy improves, I will definitely consider increasing and deepening my unalterable course of continuing feminization with additional and extensive permanent surgical and cosmetic enhancements culminating with full FFS to smooth out some of the rough edges...hehe.. and become my own work of art.... Presently, since sooo many, many friends have frequently urged me "to be true to myself" and find lasting happiness as the beautiful woman I know that I am; I am earnestly contemplating options to accelerate my transition. And I'm searching my soul as to whether to go "all in" and completely surrender to and fully embrace "the girl that I've always known to be there" or to continue tediously and unhappily "faking it" 'en homme' and 'pretending to be a man' for family and the workplace wearily fighting my gender dysphoria on a daily basis. So I have to conclude that the next step in my path to womanhood is to find a sympathetic gender therapist who can help me in determining whether I'm either genderfluid or transsexual and can help me in charting my journey of transition to live my truth; because the need to embrace and express who I really am to the world is "soo deeply felt" and it "feels so right, so good and soo natural for me" it can not be ignored any longer. My emotions swing wildly in contemplating my feminine future, probably in relation to my hormone levels ..hehe. BUT, my heart and my instincts tell me....making 'the switch' from Mister to Ms. will be inevitable for me and unavoidable!! Some day's it feels as if I have no other choice but to present to the world as the soft, sensual, sexy and fashionable woman that resides within me and cast "him" adrift as "he" has become soo tiresome and boring and "she" is far more interesting, exciting and sexy! I don't think it's possible to go back anymore...because it's really a matter of my ultimate survival. It's time to unleash my soul and let "her" free to inhale the sweet, sweet air she needs to breathe because "she" has never given up on me throughout my entire life. So 'she', 'her' and 'her's pronouns are becoming more pleasing to hear when people talk behind my back.....Hehe ;-)
As you can obviously observe in my attitude, manner, dress, demeanor, and style I'm VERY feminine; and as I've been told by friends too many times,.... I am "totally convincing and well on my way" to becoming my true and genuine authentic self...with perhaps "not very far to go" to tip the balance to living full time and the "real me" 24/7...hehe.. Friends are constantly reminding me that my "body language screams female"....thank you Danae Doyle, your tutoring DVD's have made a huge difference in helping erase my male posture and mannerisms and polish my feminine behavior. Whether full transition... HRT, FFS, BES and GCS are in my immediate future will depend on a long, deep, frank and revealing conversation and consultation with a sympathetic gender therapist to determine "how deep I'm down the rabbit hole" and when my strong feminine nature will eventually eclipse what remains of my waning masculinity or if I have already "passed the point of no return and MUST "pass through the 'looking glass'" to the other side to feel inner peace....What I feel deep inside tells me that just dressing alone is not going to satisfy my deep feminine needs and urges. My growing lust for my femininity has utterly and completely "trapped me" and I've become dependent upon it like any addict ...at some point soon, losing muscle mass, reshaping my body and softening my skin will be an absolute necessity, giving me sexy, smooth, sensual, soft female curves and hips with the luscious, beautiful breasts and feminine booty I dearly and deeply crave and should have been blessed with from the start....Mmmmm... I do sooo want 'my own' pair very, very soon so I can 'feel complete and whole', fill my D cup bras with 'all of me and only me' so my Mistress and I can fondle, tweak, lick and suck my growing nipples to our hearts delight while admiring my increasing cleavage. I sooo look forward to enjoying the weight and jiggle of my breasts as they peek out of a sexy, lacy push-up bra or bikini top or when I walk or climb stairs and feel my nipples caressed inside a very sensual silk blouse or when Mistress traces their increasing shape through the silky fabric affording me one of the true joys of womanhood. It would also be a sensual dream and most enjoyable when Mistress rewards her "good girl' by lubing me and slipping me into a latex cat suit and tight rubber corset and lacing me down to admire my shiny rubber curves, sexy booty and luscious large rubberized titties to become her "Naughty Girl"!!...Mmmm.....I do soo love for my tits and bum to be polished to a high gloss!! So making a commitment to a course of HRT therapy is definitely on the table and in deep focus for me....almost to the point of craving hormones at times and how they will soften and change my features, my body, my mind and my thoughts for the better and improve my femininity permanently and forever. I'm certainly finding more and more reasons to start Estrogen therapy to see if it will help my dysphoria rather than finding reasons not to start HRT. But for now, if I had to describe this point in my journey I would say I am a pre-op transsexual, or lusty latex shemale....but I enthusiastically look forward to completing my full transition with a designer vagina and my ultimate journey to womanhood and all it's joys and rewards someday very, very soon. So I think it's just a question of "when... not if" Kylie eventually takes over my life,... where is she going to donate all those men's suits that don't fit her new curves and slim waistline?....after all she needs the closet space.... hehe.... It's such an erotic "turn on" and very empowering, being seen, accepted, embraced and admired as a sexy, classy, beautiful and desirable woman and having people respond to me 'as a woman' because of the magic and power I can wield over men with just a wink, a glance and a smile....It's always fun to tease them with my pouty lips, sexy booty and fulsome breasts.. hehe. I must admit it is FUN being a Sexual Siren dealing with the attention, admiration and desires of men.....more than I ever imagined! (That's when I realized... mentally I have changed...I am a lesbian woman who enjoys being envied by women but I enjoy teasing and enticing men!) OK again.. I admit it...it's FUN being a HOTTIE and extremely flattering and validating to be perceived and treated as a sexy woman by both men and women. hehe ;-) Sooo... deep down... I think it's just a matter of time before that delicate balance I've been maintaining will tip and I'll be wearing pumps and primping full time as I am seriously questioning how much longer I can continue "faking it en homme". It's draining and difficult pretending to be a man everyday when you've always known you're a woman!! All I know is... it is getting more and more difficult not to live my life visibly and authentically daily. Each and everyday I'm feeling a deep, deep need to be "out and about" as a woman, proud of who I am and having people...both men and women respond positively to Kylie and cast admiring glances in my direction (The "second looks" are even more fun...when I can get them to turn "beet red"...then I know I have them in "my power" hehe). I'm convinced I'm now rapidly reaching the point that I must do something dramatic to be true to myself, to live my truth and become the woman I have always been very, very soon... as I've FINALLY given myself permission to be every bit of the woman I was destined to be and MORE!!
Sometimes when I think of my journey as a transwoman over the last decade I giggle when I remember what a former Mistress whispered in my ear.... "ONE STEP AT A TIME DARLING"!! That's what she said..."and soon you'll be well on your way and LOVE wearing dresses and doing your own makeup....you WON'T be able to resist. Soon this will all become second nature for you!!" She was soooo right....under her guidance, gentle persuasion and persistence I soon went delightfully from rough and tumble...to completely smooth and fully femme without a whimper, a hesitation a fight or tear; and readily, rapidly and easily embraced my 'inner girl' to the point that the only tears I shed were ones of joy! She quickly "persuaded me" to 'say YES to a dress'" and sooo much more. In short order she convinced me to despise all my body hair beneath my now delicately shaped eyebrows and I was shorn of it before the week was out. At her insistence I also began an intensive waist training regimen in a very restrictive corset and was required to purchase some very realistic breast forms to supplement my natural B cup. Hip padding also helped me to acquire some curves and a more feminine shape to help my new wardrobe fit better; until as she said, "I no longer require padding". She was soo right... my dresses fit so much better Mmmm. In a very short time I couldn't resist her requests to wear a sexy slinky dress or applying some creamy lipstick and gloss. She never wanted to see me unless I was fully dressed and wearing seamed stockings, panties and garter belt underneath (never pantyhose) in order to show off my shapely legs in sexy pumps. I was amazed at how much a simple pair of pumps could completely change me in posture, walking and in attitude; I now strutted with a feminine sexy, sultry confidence. I was also required to be made up for 'girl's night out"...a request or more accurately "an order" to which I readily complied. Final touches to feminize my hands included growing out my nails so I no longer required gluing on fake ones. I must admit natural nails were easier to care for than the fakes and I was proud to show off my manicure skills and two coats of polish chosen for me to match my outfits. And with my modeling background, mastering 3" heels was a breeze. Thereafter my femininity became effortless and truly enjoyable.. modeling the perfect evening ensemble chosen for me to gain her continuing approval, encouragement and support of my feminine journey just became so natural and soo normal. I was so proud of how I looked that I wanted to show off more and more and really "glow as a sexy woman" in public as much as possible with her. And I wanted to know if men and women would react positively towards me. Soon we were shopping, dining out and clubbing as two sexy lipstick lesbians and I was LOVING every minute keeping tongues wagging and people staring at our constant PDA. Before very long it was nothing but nylon and lace for me....and a bulging panty drawer (Once I started wearing silky panties I LOVED them and slipping them up my shaven legs was divine... I could never go back to ugly cotton briefs)...and I WAS hopelessly reveling in every minute of it and appreciated the constant reminders of how extraordinarily feminine I was becoming especially when I was preening in front of a mirror. The girl in me just HAD to come out! I could NEVER go back to the old me!! hehe ;-) What did she see,....or when did she see the girl in me? My feminization became a drug that I just craved as much as her approval of the woman that was being revealed. At some point in her mentoring of me... my feelings exposed to me that it had become far more than just enjoying an occasional dalliance in woman's attire' and I really LOVED how I looked and felt when I was dressed and I didn't want those lovely feelings to end...EVER!! I ate up her praise and the unsolicited praise, support and encouragement from strangers and sisters we would encounter when out and those I would receive online. It convinced me that it was something I needed to take more seriously and explore my feminine feelings and how contented and extraordinarily happy I felt when expressing as a woman! I think my smile shows that happiness.
It's been a long and at times tedious road, (denial, purging and running away from yourself is just not healthy).... but deep in my heart and feminine soul, I know it's truly and inevitably the irresistible and irreversible path I'm ordained to follow. I remember so well the day Silvana asked me if I was a full time girl and had transitioned yet?...I said "no"...and she replied..."But you are 'totally convincing' and 'well on your way'...to fully transitioning already hun. ....You may not realize it yet...but for you.. I'm absolutely certain, from what I see in you and what you've done in self-feminizing so far, it's only a matter of time dear....once you've started it's impossible to stop and there really is only one logical conclusion. I've seen this happen several times before with trans friends on the London scene who have transitioned with their partners...some part time some full time. Eventually.. YOU WILL...you ALL DO!!!!! You WON'T be able to stop feminizing.....and...you'll have very little choice in the matter!! Try as you might, you won't be able to avoid it or evade "her" no matter how hard you try to fight 'her' off!! Look at Caitlyn Jenner...can you honestly say your story is that different than hers? Take a good long look at yourself in the mirror dear, a deep honest look...haven't you already fallen in love with what you see...and you want to be 'her' more and more every moment of everyday? Don't you just find delight in applying your makeup and a creamy lipstick; and enjoy the feeling of silky nylons on your shaven legs. Believe me... If one has taken it as far as you have sweety...it's more a question of 'When'... not 'If'... you will go full time and fully transition. I can see 'HER pull' inside you is just too strong, a point comes when you just can't help it or fight it any longer dear, because clearly... SHE runs 'too deep' inside you!! So just relax, let go, surrender to "your destiny", surrender to "HER", surrender to Kylie... enjoy your true feminine feelings and fully embrace HER and HER Life and become the woman you thoroughly feel inside and absolutely 'Need to Be'!! She's who you REALLY are and you know it deep down inside all too well. You deserve to be happy and at peace within yourself and to live your life authentically and publicly as a woman with a body that aligns with your mind and makes you joyful every time you catch a glimpse of HER in the mirror."....Over time I have come to realize the deep truth of what she meant and that I was 'well on my way' to discovering who I truly am as a woman. It wasn't something I chose.....She is ME....it's who I am and who I MUST be!!....So it was a transformative moment realizing, acknowledging, accepting and embracing that I was indeed a transgendered woman and that transitioning would be the ultimate end to my journey and one path to inner peace.
Subsequently, as a result of this realization I knew that once I poked my polished toenails into the panty drawer I couldn't resist... or fight her...err, I mean Kylie.. off any longer. That luscious feeling of my silky hair on my shoulders or the tugging on my earlobes from a pair of dangly earrings is soo seductive. Confirming my true gender seems like the only logical conclusion to this journey and my destiny; if you believe the results of the myriad gender tests I've submitted myself to.....One most recently confirmed again that I was "a late-onset transsexual". In fact, after one short therapy session I was told "You are destined to be a girl". Just accepting that I am transsexual has been soo transformative for me and has helped to explain all those personal mysteries that I have pondered for so long. I have come soo far, in self discovery and acceptance that I don't think I could possibly turn back now...It's been sooo much fun getting to know this girl inside, and brings me such peace and happiness. Each time I look at my photos or gaze into a mirror the reflection of the woman I see feels so right, soo calming and is a true reflection of the "real me" that matches who I am on the inside. It is difficult to describe the inner joy I felt the first time I saw "the woman I am" in a mirror..It was as if I was really seeing "myself' for the first time.. I was just sooo elated to Finally be expressing my true feminine self and I wanted this feeling of "becoming me" to continue FOREVER (That guy had FINALLY been ERASED). I felt like a complete woman for the first time in my life and felt soo free and natural. I enjoyed a warm inner glow and a sense of joy, peace and contentment and oneness with myself that I had never known before!! I was just overcome with happiness. It was truly 'Love at first sight" and a "boy meets girl" and falls in love moment!!....But when friends started using "HOT", "YUMMY", GORGEOUS" and female pronouns to describe me and saying: "She's coming along nicely" and "You're NOT fooling anybody, I can't believe you were 'ever' a man"...no one would ever even dream it, or "Face it honey you're a knockout" as well as,: "You have no idea of what it means to look like you do girlfriend, you're SUCH a PRETTY GIRL" in the same sentence with my name I was dumbstruck...maybe awestruck is more accurate because I guess they could see my feminine soul more deeply than I can at times. Surrendering to and embracing femininity and my true feminine nature has been a sheer joy and she is far too seductive and enchanting a mistress to refuse her any changes....for I have come to realize that they are not really changes at all....but rather the cultivation of the person... nee, WOMAN, that was always in me... or rather, "I have always been"...Mmmm ;-) Erasing every last element of what's remains of my male persona seems more and more a top priority for me these days. Especially since some friend's pm'd me here to say: "Face it Girl...YOU ARE HOT!!"…."You must really look in the mirror to see what we all see....Most women would kill to look as good as you do hun HONESTLY! .....You REALLY ARE such a beautiful girl.....You can see HER in your eyes....You are beautiful in every respect". "You look SO natural as a girl"..."You've crossed the line and can't go back... Don't ever consider yourself a man again, you have relinquished all hope and pretense of masculinity...you ARE a Woman" and "There is not one drop of masculinity left in you. Good work! Your smile tells the story: you love it this way!!" or "You are just such a gorgeous woman" and "You, madam, are a stunning woman. A head turner."...."Just Breathtaking.... No one can see the future, but it's safe to say you'll always be a lady with the power to stun and awe"."But you babydoll are so incredibly attractive...you know what you HAVE TO DO to share your beauty with the world...not many women have been gifted your level of eroticism, you're truly a sexy lady!" And most recently these five caused me to pause, think and gasp because they ring so true and they scared me.."But you look so genuinely pretty, so cute and seem so naturally feminine that you inspire the rest of us, in a sort of "when I grow up I want to be like you" way!".....And...."The eyes...always in your eyes! You may try to hide Her, but She is there! She is beautiful and gorgeous...She makes YOU glow"...And..."OMG...Just go on HRT already....FACE IT you're a GIRL and you ALWAYS WILL BE!! And "You're such a girl and you know it. Don't let time slip away; do what you need to do. You know it is your desire and your destiny!" And finally.."Girl...stop worrying about transitioning...you are ALREADY THERE...you ARE a woman and always have been!...No my dear, you are more of a sexy woman than me or 99 percent of the woman out there... I do not know about therapy, and hormones, but I believe they would just be icing on a finished cake... Do not ever doubt yourself again, girlfriend !!!! When I first contacted you I thought you WERE a woman. YOU have to stop pretending to be a man.. because you have NEVER been a man!. You are a beautiful sexy woman, ALL WOMAN!!!" (I do LOVE these reminders of what I am becoming or really ..who I am! ;-) ) I think you would have to conclude as I have, that deep down inside my soul I have Finally realized that it's time to stop running away from who I really am, who I always was and who I am meant to be...in other words..."to become my true authentic self".... A PROUD WOMAN... that "THIS IS THE REAL AND TRUE ME,... THIS IS WHO I REALLY AM ..and THIS IS WHO I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN"... that...YES "I AM KylieAmanda now....that smiling happy woman in all my photos really is ME"...and she fills me with joy and happiness!! Knowing and finally accepting my feminine soul/self has lifted a great burden from my consciousness and given me a extraordinary sense of inner peace and happiness in this profound life affirming act. 'Coming out' to myself was probably the hardest part of my transition and the most important. Some day I hope to look back in wonder at who 'he' was and find it difficult to imagine I ever existed as a man!! "He" would only come to mind as someone who existed only in my memories of my dim and distant past.
It would also be a lovely and deelightful dream to sacrifice my masculinity and surrender to a stylish and sexy Mistress to share this exciting feminine journey of becoming myself...as well as spa days, makeovers and mani-pedi's; before we step out together for lunch, lot's of shopping and our girl's nights on the town!! ...hehe. Someone who compliments my lifestyle and ever increasing feminization..(I can't imagine anything greater or more exciting than to be loved by a girl who really wants and desires me as a female and who loves "my breasts" because they are an erotic attraction to her and something we both take great pride in and want to show off....I mean really... what 'bitch' wouldn't want to be shown off as her Goddess's pride and joy)!! Someone who doesn't mind that the "other woman" in our relationship is me..hehe....a sensual woman who enjoys planning and participating in "building and sculpting the girl of her dreams"...hehe...and in the total transformation and transition of "her gurl" from homme to femme fatale and who would love me to "bend over" for a 'stiff reward' from her strap-on....a lady who thinks I'm a 'yummy girl'.... and who get's turned on the more and more feminine I become for her, and who would be giddy and squeal with delight at the prospect of feminizing me further with her teasing, pampering, primping, praising, pushing and continually encouraging and supporting my progress towards womanhood as we enjoy my total transformation together...Mmmm. She would delight in how pretty I am and love to constantly remind me of that and how much she has emasculated me to become "her woman"...."her collared bitch"...."her personal.. custom made lipstick lesbian, latex lover" and at times "her wet, sexy, rubberized bitch and fuck toy" hehe.., but recognize that her love has allowed the "real me" to finally be free to live "my truth". I would sooo LOVE to become 'the girl of her dreams" and when needed for housecleaning and 'high tea'...or other 'chores' her dreamy and attentive "rubber French Maid" and be rewarded with her choosing our matching nipple and ear piercings, earrings, engagement rings, bridal lingerie and wedding gowns to confirm and commit to our life together in womanhood and total femininity as each others VERY "Hot Wife"!! I know I would certainly love, honor and "obey" her every wish and whim for all of our days exploring each others smoothly shaven, sexy, shiny body's together!!! ;-)
So have some fun paging through my photos...they are all real and have not been altered with FaceApp... I think you can see in them the joy and happiness my femininity brings to me in my 'broad' smile and the sparkle in my eyes... ;-) wink wink.... Femininity can be like a drug which is very addictive....if so then I'm an addict..hehe
I love to make new girlfriends, let me repeat that "GIRLFRIENDS" if you misread the top of my profile I AM A LESBIAN....so please no creepy requests from guys or showing me your 'dick pics'!! ...If I don't already know you please send a note of introduction or comment on my pics and introduce yourself....PLEASE! I am a woman and like to be treated like a Lady! I receive literally hundreds of requests so you're much more likely to gain my friendship with polite/sexy email overtures or comments on my photos! Two or three word notes are not going to score you any vocabulary points or my attention!!! Random requests from 'friend collectors' are usually ignored and dispatched accordingly!! And if you haven't figured it out by now.....hehe...my pronouns are 'she', 'her' and 'hers'!!
PS...If you are a fashion photographer and have read my entire profile congratulations on your stamina. In another life I was trained as a model for runway and catalog work....I would LOVE to return to runway and print modeling but this time as my true feminine self and strut and stride the runway in heels....if you find you could use someone like me in your portfolio or for one of your commercial clients please reach out and let me know...thank you!!
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Desires and Fantasies**
It would also be a lovely and deelightful dream to sacrifice my masculinity and surrender to a stylish and sexy Mistress to share this exciting feminine journey of becoming myself...as well as spa days, makeovers and mani-pedi's; before we step out together for lunch, lot's of shopping and our girl's nights on the town!! ...hehe. Someone who compliments my lifestyle and ever increasing feminization..(I can't imagine anything greater or more exciting than to be loved by a girl who really wants and desires me as a female and who loves "my breasts" because they are an erotic attraction to her and something we both take great pride in and want to show off....I mean really... what 'bitch' wouldn't want to be shown off as her Goddess's pride and joy)!! Someone who doesn't mind that the "other woman" in our relationship is me..hehe....a sensual woman who enjoys planning and participating in "building and sculpting the girl of her dreams"...hehe...and in the total transformation and transition of "her gurl" from homme to femme fatale and who would love me to "bend over" for a 'stiff reward' from her strap-on....a lady who thinks I'm a 'yummy girl'.... and who get's turned on the more and more feminine I become for her, and who would be giddy and squeal with delight at the prospect of feminizing me further with her teasing, pampering, primping, praising, pushing and continually encouraging and supporting my progress towards womanhood as we enjoy my total transformation together...Mmmm. She would delight in how pretty I am and love to constantly remind me of that and how much she has emasculated me to become "her woman"...."her collared bitch"...."her personal.. custom made lipstick lesbian, latex lover" and at times "her wet, sexy, rubberized bitch and fuck toy" hehe.., but recognize that her love and support has allowed the "real me" to finally be free to live "my truth". I would sooo LOVE to become 'the girl of her dreams" and when needed for housecleaning and 'high tea'...or other 'chores' her dreamy and attentive "rubber French Maid" and be rewarded with her choosing our matching nipple and ear piercings, earrings, engagement rings, bridal lingerie and wedding gowns to confirm and commit to our life together in womanhood and total femininity as each others VERY "Hot Wife"!! I know I would certainly love, honor and "obey" her every wish and whim for all of our days exploring each others smoothly shaven, sexy, shiny body's together!!! ;-)
It would also be a dream of mine to travel the world with my Mistress as her sexy Hot wife and lesbian lover; visiting the Fetish capitals of Europe and enjoying fetish events and erotic fantasy balls all over the globe!!